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Bon Jovi - Thank You For Loving Me

Truce

The situation is far from funny

but one has to laugh to keep from crying

You know you've met your match

when the gloves just keeping on flying

Who is going to be the one

to throw in the white flag

Stubbornness will never win

neither will being a nag.

As I take a breath and try to focus

at my opponent in front of me

bruised, bleeding & wincing as such

in pain but refuses to flee.

As angry as we are we can never deny

something is telling us to quit

We are bigger than this & friends way too long

we must really end this SH*@

So I reach in my pocket to clean the blood 

from off my opponent's face

Then I looked at my hand shocked to see this flowy white thing

it was the flag made out of lace

As I looked in the mirror at my own bruised face

I cried at what had to be

My opponent turned & wiped my tears

and said, "Thank you for loving me"

Love is bizarre

Isn't it crazy.

You love someone

for the gem they are...

but things get in the way

Once again...career steps in

the selfish behavior takes over.

I'm like WTF

It isn't obvious at first.

But after a while

things seem a little more clear.

You love them for the ambition

but the lack of drive is a total turn off

And you fight with everyone.

You believe in it.

You believe in it

Lord do you believe in it.

And you even do things that

is against your beliefs.

So know that the love is

still innocent

It is true.

And the talent.. you still believe in

But the talent has to believe

that it can't happen alone.

I'm proud of the drive...but don't forget

how you got here

Through that bizarre thing called love

that I and many like me gave you.

We believed in you when others

shunned you.

The love is strong

but is being defeated 

by that other bizarre thing

called ego

Time was all that I asked for

Busy is what we all are

but time is something

that we will never get back

The misreading of covetousness

is really so sad

misunderstood and misconstrued

The time wasted from what

echoes in your head

was time taken away

from what really was said

The joyous laughter

I heard was bliss

The children danced

thru the dew & mist

As the clock struck 2am

sadness set in

The beauty of nature

had changed  a bit

Though one didn’t realize

at the close of the door

time was all that I asked for

Marching into Deceit

Wandering around in a world

I use to know

the land I once called home

This time seem different

Things I looked forward to

friends who I considered

more than that

They are family

2 hours of extra time

seemed like  it was worth it

but time seemed to drag

as I became a stranger

in this other world I didn’t know

The people looked friendly enough

but they were all taken over

by the demons of the bottle

& even the people I knew

were lost in the lust of confusion

Suddenly the commotion hit

crashes of  glass & spills of red

like blood on the battle field.

As I looked  around for the hero to appear

I sadly did not feel secure

As I got my barrings about myself together

I wanted to feel I wasn’t alone

Yet the hero I thought was not a stranger to me

was the strangest one of all

As think back to leaving

all those faces behind

In the land I once called home

I realized when I came to the real world

my hero was left there too

Never would I have thought

in a million years

all the fools that we spoke of

that I was just one of them

the fool that you can make jokes of

Should I have known

that my choice was bad

to go to that world of many faces

Marching into that world of deceit

I could have chose many other places

Be Careful What You Wish For

The yelling the screaming

I can live without

You are only listening to your words

Not mine.

Was everything a ploy

to get what you wanted?

Hmmm makes one wonder

A lot a time spent

Developing a dream

Documents & visions

Scrawled on pieces of paper

Still protected from the outside world

But there are demons

That not even I can fight

Not for you , nor for me

The denial and the resentment

Fuels both of us

though you refuse to see it

I stood by you through the fires of hell

against folks I really shouldn’t have been

trying to defeat

And the sad part was

I always saw your side

But in this last battle

You couldn’t see mine.

I was never the enemy

yet I proudly took all the

bullets of the friendly fire

with honor & pride

But that wasn’t good enough

Not sure where the child we bore

will lay his head

For now I guess he will

float in space of uncertainty

And before you have your

new cheerleaders out on the field

cheering for the not so obvious & obscure

revisit all of it…the Zeros, the pain

the family not there

the day to day battles

everything that mattered

Stomp on that ego and realize

there is more.

Also understand that

the respect you were fighting for

was the same that I was asking for

I was just more humble & respectful

in my demands

As you revisit that day in your head

was it really worth it

One little shot

 when I would have bought bottle

just for you

So when you are ready

To re-nurture the dream

Please come prepared

You want what you want

well so do I

and next I will get my share

Moving on

Lost a best friend yesterday...not to a death, but to them self..  Loved them dearly, still do.. but too much pain....a lot to get into & I won't...but to say that certain things are acceptable based to what they want..showing me no respect.....I deserve better. Especially when they were often put first..over many


I am angry...but not bitter..hurt but defeated...Open but guarded


One thing that I know  if someone else had of behaved like this w/me that friend would have defended me with gloves on.


I love you my friend..... we cried together, laughed & everything in between... you know more about me & I you more than anyone in life..but you & I both know what this was about....But I will live with the decision that was made. 


So as I get business back in order....I too will be flying solo.

Eminem - Love The Way You Lie ft. Rihanna

The punishment

I did wrong
& God paid me back
physically, mentally & emotionally.

I did it to myself
by letting my guard down.
Now my resistance is low
health is deteriorating.

Went through it before
long long ago
And tried to ignore the
obvious signs.

But you can't change
a leopards spots
I know that for sure.
Once they get what they want
you get chewed up & spat you out.

You know what was done
honesty means nothing
If it's not what one wants
the punishment will be deadly.

What friends are for

Aren't friends suppose to be 
that one person 
who you choose to 
be part of your life 
who you trust will always 
be there for you? 
Aren't they the person 
who you chose to show 
unconditional love to? 
A person you can trust 
to not stab you in the back. 
A person you figure 
would show no jealousy. 
Isn't that why we are 
in each other's life? 
So then why would you 
decide to do some 
of the evil things to me 
that you know I would never 
do to you. 
Is it envy of my progress in life? 
Is it the lack of control you have over me? 
What would possess you to 
do the dastardly things you have done 
behind my back. 
You couldn't even 
confront me face to face 
with the problem at hand. 
But it is apparent, 
that you are the true problem 
in this friendship. 
Though I love you 
I really need distance myself 
from this toxic relationship 
because though 
I had your best interest at heart. 
It is obvious 
you don't have mine. 
Good bye my friend. 

Sorry very sad

Isn't it amazing how someone makes a decision that they absolutely know is wrong.. yet they do it anyway....Well you live & your learn & I am done trying. I need to move on.

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Not a Mind reader

I have tried & tried

but, no more

No more reading your mind

No more over extending

No more trying to please

the unpleasible

No more chasing 

the unchasible

Many are willing to deal

with excuse after excuse

as to why your behavior

should be tolerated.

Not me

not anymore

I thought it was going to be a certain way

At least that was what you told me

But apparently

you only know

what you have been taught

And that was

the same way

you have been treated

Poorly.

I refuse to be you

Because I can only be me

And since that isn't good enough

Do it your way

on your terms

At least you know

what you want

because I apparently don't.