Sunday, July 18, 2010

Mixed Signals

I lay alone awake in my bed

Thinking about that last thing that you said.

I try to get my thoughts together

about the conversation we had.

You know you mean the world to me.

But I am not sure if I am with you.

You tell me all the things I want to hear.

But is it all true?

Or are you feeding me a lot of bull.

When I look into your eyes I see the love.

But your actions tell me something else.

I am not sure where I stand with you.

You tell me you love me, you tell me you care.

But is this the truth, or is this the way

you manipulate me to get what you really want.

My heart is special. You need to see.

And I cannot allow you to crush it into dust.

So though I love you with all my heart,

you need to show me what you really feel,

and not the indifference that you have portrayed.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010


~when you have a big mouth....realize your tongue can slit your throat w/your last words~

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Moving on with the book

Great things going on with the book .. finished shooting the book cover today.. Thank you Durga Garcia for the fantastic job.  Can't wait to see the final results.

Thank you to those who are diligently working on their part and meeting the deadlines required. Thank you those who submitted for the contest. Judges are almost finish adjudicating.

Couple of changes have been made.... but this will not effect the outcome of the book

Updates coming soon.

See a sneak preview of the make up for the cover below

Monday, July 12, 2010


What happens when the one person you trust in the whole wide world hurts you.  The one thing that they vowed they would never do to you ..they do.  The person who you laugh during the great times and they pick you up during the hard times. They swore to you practically on a stack of bibles that what was done to them would never in a million year be done to you by them.

I am angry, hurt and totally disconnected that I can't even show compassion for others right now. Sympathy for others I lack; the compassion is all about gone.

I refuse to approach it because I already years ago, like last week, like yesterday , It will be told to me like I caused it is all my fault.

The one person I had hoped that I would never be angry like this at....Thanks for the reality check asshole. I realize now that you aren't perfect and the only saviour I have. I find a way to get over this anger. But I know me; this one is going to take awhile

Friday, July 09, 2010

The redesign of the Muah shirt

Due to the fact Spreadshirts graphics were not the quality A.T.B. is accustom to,  they decided to custom design Afro Boy's Muah to the Ladies logo. We are happy to say the Alexie F is very pleased w/the results.

Monday, July 05, 2010