Thursday, September 30, 2010

HEAR ME NOW!!!!

I am a wife, a mother, a friend, a family member, an artist, an author, a teacher a mentor, an advocate, business partner to a few, & a business associate to many.


I have worked with many & have personally developed some great relationships with people.


Many people think they know me...but only a select few actually do. Those are the ones who have been there w/me thru the trenches. The death of my parents, my graduation, my learning about life, the birth of my children, my wedding, my heart breaks, the creating of my art, the creating process of my book & my book signings, my breakdowns & upsets, my joys & triumphs.




My family & close friends mean the world to me. And though I have a few people in my life who some deem "questionable" ... I know what works for me & my life. If you are in my life, you are for a reason. If you have been eliminated, there is a reason for that too.


Many know me as easy going, but please do not mistake my kindness for weakness.


So for those who think they know me....ask ME first...Not someone else. And if you don't believe what you hear then that's on you. It's not meant for you to know then.




Please do not ask what this in reference to. And for God sake, please don't assume you know. It isn't whether you know where the nature of this is coming from, it is more for future reference.


I hope we have an understanding... thank you for allowing me to rant...




Peace.


It's been real!

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

The Vanity of the Storm

In quoting Carly Simon


“You’re so vain…I bet you think this song is about you”


Unlike the other songs, yes this one IS about you.


Frankly, your narcissistic and self indulgent behavior is draining


Do you really think that with all I have going on in my personal life


that I have time to really think about you all the time


AH NO!


I let you cry on my shoulder at your darkest hour


laughed with you (not at you) when it was fun & games






Now you find yourself reading between lines of the imaginary


ARE YOU KIDDING ME?


First I was annoyed and offended


Then I was just numb


Now I am indifferent






I sympathize with your pain


But understand that you’re pushing many away


Understand that though I forgive your confusion and misunderstanding


our friendship will never be the same






I am not a fan of accusations & assumption thrown my way


when I don’t deserve them


Know that you pushed the one person who had your ear


& was a true advocate for your plights


& know that I don’t wish you ill will


I wish you peace of mind


BE WELL



Monday, September 06, 2010

get focused


As much as I love helping people, I find my attention being distracted.  I have several things I am trying to accomplished & I have people (who I love) forgetting that like them I too have goals.  I am trying to finish something that is very important.  I have my regular work that I have to finish.  And these people just do not see that they are draining me.  They believe that another individual is causing the problem. But will not take any responsibility that they cause..

To get priorities in check, I will have to temporarily disconnect. I have stuff to do & I will get it done. With or with out your approval.

I am weary, but not defeated. I'm getting my tasks done....And note, if you are gonna waste my time w/your self centered nonsense...before you blame me or anyone else why you aren't on the right path.....look in the mirror & ask yourself why you think that the only one talent you are willing to use is the only thing that will help you be successful & YOU aren't willing to do more.