Thursday, June 30, 2011

I didn’t use you

Do I understand
what is going on?
No, I am so confused.
I think about the rights and the wrongs
the choices I need to make.
My vision is very blurred.
I say one thing
but I really mean another.
I use money
to gain what I don't need.
I use metaphors to cover up the pain.
I use peopleto cover up the truth.
So now in this power struggle
I am trying to conquer;
know that I didn't use you in the fight
to protect you from the war.

© 2005 Trina Slade-Burks

Friday, June 24, 2011

Fallen Soldiers

Please stop acting clueless
like it’s the first time
this has happened.
I think you enjoy seeing
disorderly  conduct in your mental space.
If you didn’t,
you wouldn’t allow it in your world.

As the pandemonium unfolded
instead of me feeling like loyal subject
you treated me like an abandoned dog
left without food,
while all the yard dogs
battled for the meat.

There were the things in your life
that I thought were important to fight for
yet you were willing to throw it all away.
So why should I assume
that I am any different
That I am not just as easy to discard.

The fear in my heart
you planted.
The seeds of distrust
you sowed.
The fruits of disloyalty
you harvested.

And now you walk around
waiting  for me to accept
all the nonsense. 

Look, you already knew
where my loyalty was.
I proved it to you
when I  fought like a soldier
in your war.
But the war is over,
and the wrong team won.
You were defeated
 & you’re too blind to see.
Reason why, you abandoned
your other warriors.
 for the double agent
on the other team.
So when you left us,
we got separated
and ambushed.
Now your warriors
are dead.
I’m  the lone soldier standing.
Wondering if
the time you committed to me
though shorter
than your fallen warriors
will be dishonored as well.

Friday, June 17, 2011


There are times when
a person stands on the side lines
and often is the one over looked
The one that sees & knows 
all the calls
& all the plays 
like a caddy
They may not make their presence be known
but you know that they are there.
They aren’t the loud
cheerleader @ the game
or the obnoxious coach @ the boxing match
but they are way more effective
for the job & your psyche.
They may not physically hold your hand
but they are the ones who actually guide.
At some point, 
don’t you think 
that they should get some
recognition too.

Saturday, June 11, 2011

You Feel What You Know

Too many things in the way of reality. 
You try to help someone avoid a mistake
They do what they want.. & chaos happens.
You devote your life to happiness
& you are around people who are totally unrealistic.
You know when you feel the anxiety
& you know the truth is beating on your door.
And you want for it to not  be what you feel it is
but you know for a fact what it is.

Did I invite that negative source in?
What if I had of just said no... let's do this
instead of that
What if I had not followed my heart
and just said.. what if.
I know I wouldn't be here now
Resenting all these entities presently
in my life.
Now all the entities are crying out
& I believe that I can no longer help them.
All I can do is sob, sigh & walk away.
Shaking my head, saying to myself
that I sensed it, I knew it, I felt it.

Entities in my life
Stop living in the unrealistic world of self
once you realize that 
your decisions you have chose
affect many
then maybe I can help you
get out of the rut. 

Monday, June 06, 2011

Happy 53 Birthday to one of my favorite Geminis

Happy Birthday to a true genius. A man who dared to challenge to musical industry to gain his respect. A true artist...A Gemini Like me. 

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