Moving on

Lost a best friend yesterday...not to a death, but to them self..  Loved them dearly, still do.. but too much pain....a lot to get into & I won't...but to say that certain things are acceptable based to what they want..showing me no respect.....I deserve better. Especially when they were often put first..over many


I am angry...but not bitter..hurt but defeated...Open but guarded


One thing that I know  if someone else had of behaved like this w/me that friend would have defended me with gloves on.


I love you my friend..... we cried together, laughed & everything in between... you know more about me & I you more than anyone in life..but you & I both know what this was about....But I will live with the decision that was made. 


So as I get business back in order....I too will be flying solo.

Eminem - Love The Way You Lie ft. Rihanna

The punishment

I did wrong
& God paid me back
physically, mentally & emotionally.

I did it to myself
by letting my guard down.
Now my resistance is low
health is deteriorating.

Went through it before
long long ago
And tried to ignore the
obvious signs.

But you can't change
a leopards spots
I know that for sure.
Once they get what they want
you get chewed up & spat you out.

You know what was done
honesty means nothing
If it's not what one wants
the punishment will be deadly.

What friends are for

Aren't friends suppose to be 
that one person 
who you choose to 
be part of your life 
who you trust will always 
be there for you? 
Aren't they the person 
who you chose to show 
unconditional love to? 
A person you can trust 
to not stab you in the back. 
A person you figure 
would show no jealousy. 
Isn't that why we are 
in each other's life? 
So then why would you 
decide to do some 
of the evil things to me 
that you know I would never 
do to you. 
Is it envy of my progress in life? 
Is it the lack of control you have over me? 
What would possess you to 
do the dastardly things you have done 
behind my back. 
You couldn't even 
confront me face to face 
with the problem at hand. 
But it is apparent, 
that you are the true problem 
in this friendship. 
Though I love you 
I really need distance myself 
from this toxic relationship 
because though 
I had your best interest at heart. 
It is obvious 
you don't have mine. 
Good bye my friend. 

Sorry very sad

Isn't it amazing how someone makes a decision that they absolutely know is wrong.. yet they do it anyway....Well you live & your learn & I am done trying. I need to move on.

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Not a Mind reader

I have tried & tried

but, no more

No more reading your mind

No more over extending

No more trying to please

the unpleasible

No more chasing 

the unchasible

Many are willing to deal

with excuse after excuse

as to why your behavior

should be tolerated.

Not me

not anymore

I thought it was going to be a certain way

At least that was what you told me

But apparently

you only know

what you have been taught

And that was

the same way

you have been treated

Poorly.

I refuse to be you

Because I can only be me

And since that isn't good enough

Do it your way

on your terms

At least you know

what you want

because I apparently don't.

Not perfect

Instead of finding problems

why don't you find a solution?

It's amazing how when you make mistakes

I fix them

but when I make mistakes

you condemn

and belittle them.

I was raised to be

a problem solver

a critical thinker.

Not a problem

or a criticizer.

The riddles are getting more random

with less consideration of thought.

I guess I am suppose to just

suck it up

& take it.

Well, not sure how much longer

that will last.

After a while

I will leave you to your tasks

alone.